This week I received notice that one large project and one smaller one is not going to be published by the presses where they were submitted.
At first, I felt numb. Then I traveled back in time to a familiar place, my childhood. After I turned nine, my parents were both troubled and preoccupied by health issues. Much of what I accomplished at school and in the creative arts was overlooked or minimized. At the time, my only sibling criticized my drawings, compositions, and poetry. She said, “How babyish and silly.”
Now, when my writing is rejected in the marketplace, my first reaction can be fright and isolation. This time I felt myself slipping back into my old shell of inferiority, lack, and unworthiness. I internalized the decision of the publishers as a personal blow. The little girl inside me screamed and wrestled with conflicting voices in her head. Her true voice said, I know what I'm writing about and it's good! Harsh voices shouted, Stupid. Egotistical. Impostor.
Dear Reader, Writers, and other creative thinkers: What helps you rebound, trust your ability, value yourself, and get back into the ring? This time I used journal writing, praying, meditating, and sharing my vulnerability with others as a path to release sadness and lack of self-confidence. Please share what helps you get out of that "stuck" place. Click on the envelope below this post and leave a comment or put your email into the space next to submit and click the button. Also, share this with others so we can have a lively discussion.
the quote for today follows:
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Eleanor Roosevelt (This is My Story 1937)